Terri titles this evening’s post "More of the Same" but in reading it, that’s hardly the truth. See for yourself!
More of the same
Posted at 10:30pm PT
That’s what today was, more of the same. That is finally a wonderful thing to say. Sean just cruised through the day. For the most part he slept but in his brief periods of alertness he was very animated. There were a few times that he mouthed words. He mouthed yes to his nurse a couple of different times in answer to questions. He is not consistent but this is pretty exciting stuff!
It’s amazing how quickly life turns and changes, sometimes slowly over months or years. Sometimes quickly, in a moment with a phone call late at night that sets your world spinning off its axis. And sometimes gradually over a day or a week, you realize that subtly things have been altered and if you take just a moment to reflect you can see that everything looks and feels a little bit better. That, I believe, is why Jesus told us to live in the moment, in the day. To not worry about tomorrow, but to have faith that God will see us through this day. We can’t change yesterday and we have no idea what tomorrow will bring. We can plan, we can "do everything right".
But you know what, no matter how hard we try to control the outcome of our lives, sometimes things happens that we couldn’t have foreseen and we couldn’t have safeguarded ourselves against it. I’m not advocating a fly by the seat of your pants, **** the consequences lifestyle. We all have to live somewhat responsibly and make plans for our future well being and the well being of others, but, we can do that and still live in the day. We can wake up in the morning and thank God for the upcoming day and say " Your will, not mine Lord". We can look at the day ahead and have faith that God will help us to conquer our battles or to identify and appreciate small blessings.
You know why I’m thinking about all of this? It’s because I have been thinking about how carefully we protected our children when they were small. When Sean was in grade school we wouldn’t let him ride his bike to the store with his friends because we were afraid that he would get hurt. We did everything humanly possible to keep our kids safe. When Sean was in high school and after he was out he became an extreme sports guy. He loved snow boarding fast and cliff diving and rock climbing. He was an adrenaline junky and he scared us to death. The last couple of years haven’t been the easiest for Sean and for the most part he has lost his zest for that kind of thrill and I have found myself being thankful that he had all of those experiences because he will always have them to look back on and enjoy those memories.
Now this accident happened and it was just that, an accident. Nothing we could have foreseen or safeguarded against. A horrible tragic accident. I am rambling just to say that for now, at this time in my life, I get it. I get that God gives us today with all of it’s grief and glory. All of it’s challenges and blessings. And we get the choice, the freewill to trust God and live fully in this day or to regret yesterday and fret tomorrow.
Today, this day I am trusting God and if there is a tomorrow then He will see me through that as well.
Goodnight beautiful people, thank you for loving our boy and trusting God with his well being.
Love,
Terri, Vince, Sean & Kiersten
I just want to say amen to this.
With what I’m going through again I know exactly where she is coming from. We didn’t plan for this and there isn’t anything we could have done to make it different, but God is in control and He knows and knew even when we didn’t. Living in the day we’re given and being the best we can be for Him is all we can really hope for.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I’m still praying.